Everyone (should) know by now the love that I have for Marilyn Manson.
Since 1997 I have been in love with the man and the band that made Marilyn Manson. I have several Marilyn Manson tattoos, own tons of memorabilia and have even met Brian Warner and hung out with him and Dita Von Teese.
His music always spoke deeply to me. It was as if every word was being spoken or sung directly to me. His music made me who I am today, which is a very stable, successful and smart woman. He taught me not to care what the world thinks or what society says is standard. There were countless nights where life seemed impossible, but I would turn on that music and everything melted away.
People blame the music, art and entertainment for their faults, when really they should be looking at themselves. This is what he taught me.
You don’t have to be goth, punk or alternative. You don’t need to be popular or trendy. You just need to be YOU. You need to stand up for what you love and what you feel is right. He never said that we should do what he does or follow his lead, just to be your truest self.
Even though I am in my 30’s, I love him just as much as I did in 1997. However, I may not devote every waking moment to him or his music. I may not go to every single show that he plays within a certain radius. That doesn’t change the love that I have.
What i’ve learned is that Marilyn Manson wants us to live our lives as an individual, to our fullest. And for this stage of my life, I am living by making memories, traveling and being (unfortunately) a financially smart adult. Inflation has really upped the costs for concerts and not only have I missed MANY shows of his, I’ve missed many shows in general.
I have bitched about the costs of Marilyn Manson’s shows, compared to the past, compared to the lineup and set lists. Frankly, Marilyn Manson doesn’t give a fuck about me and if I go to the show. I’m one out of millions of his devoted fans.
I am going to his show in Baltimore, February 2018. I am tickled and excited, just as I would have been when I was 13. Of course I want to be right up front, make eye contact and sing along with him. Of course I want to buy merch instead of food that week. Of course I am going to be in awe no matter how amazing or how bad the show may be. Of course I am going to be the happiest girl in the world.
I may not look like I used to. Or act the way I used to. But I’m still the same Karah as I was when I was a ‘mansonite’. Im not active on forums because I don’t have time for that. I don’t keep up with all the Manson news real time anymore. I work, I take care of my family, my health and unfortunately medical bills that take up a lot of my paycheck. I don’t have the privileges that I used to have. Just dont forget, I’m still here. I’m still in love and I’m someone stupid just like you.